Really… thanks! Have I known that it would be the last, a thing in the past, things were too fast, you were aghast, like somehow harassed, my feelings so vast, I wished this would be everlast
Indeed you were nice, it trapped me on ice, a desolate paradise, I never knew there was a price, my efforts like precious grains of rice, you tossed a calloused dice, my spurned sacrifice, it just so happened that I won’t suffice
Borrowing Dolores’s words, I thought a world of you, an element more sublime than the morning dew, an armor to get me through, my greatest view, an abstract sole in my shoe, an end in a long line of a military queue, my heart marching on coup, my beautiful déjà vu, the star that I look up to, my sweet apple bird waiting to ensue, the only person I’d like to be with in a rocking canoe.
Sana nga puwede na lang ako magalit sa’yo. But I can’t neglect my love and respect for you all. I’m simply yearning for you. Was this all part of the scam, ‘cuz you simply don’t give a damn. Oh man, you’re such a dead pan. Oh yeah I forgot you never give a damn. I’ve always been the gazelle chasing a lion. A worker bee hovering over a braggart dandelion. Lustfully desiring an unwanted diamond. A charm clasped in intellectual, philosophical iron. Becoming a patriotic titan. And me? A hopeful romantic at the end of the line. So if ever you decide to be with some stupid tyrant, damn sam, I’d start a riot.
I lied when I said I could handle your gigantic pride. Your pride can surpass even Bolt’s strides. Like a midnight high tide. You kept me on the outside, reluctantly replied, not even on a yuletide, your flaws amplified, your thick walls a great divide! You’re system can’t be override!
I chose you to be my soothing poison. My loving reason. And it’s killing me. Chilling and killing my precious ginger tea. You know what I mean. My feelings to you is not a hyperbole. My dream of you even just for a silver jubilee. My prideful damsel in the Caribbean sea. You will always be my lovely big foot slash banshee. And in this lifetime I guess you will never see, me.
It was a regular day. Another afternoon. Doing the usual household chores with my brother. Nothing out of the ordinary. Everything was gleeful. Everything was in its natural state.
Then it started to rain. Like any other normal day, it pours during this hour. The sound of the rain was typical – or so we thought.
The heavy rain started drenching everything in sight as we look outside the window. But as everything looked natural from the outside, the world was experiencing it quite differently. Still, we went on with our daily routine not knowing the foreboding havoc waiting patiently.
When we were done sweeping the floors, I was about to call my parents to have lunch, while my brother was preparing it for us. But something strange caught my eye. I stared at it intently as I was feeling sort of delusional. It was flooding outside, it was waving hysterically, and this flood was otherworldly. I could not believe I was seeing a 4 feet tide from just a normal downpour. This was supposed to be a usual day for us all. And as I look at the flood with its menacing surge, my body started to feel paralyzed from this surreal situation. “This cant happen”, I told myself. I felt hypnotic as the peculiarly aqua blue colored flood glistens from outside our window. Its sound is like a wave crashing from the seas. It smells like the sea. It looks like it came from the sea. Then I came to my senses and uttered, “Oh my God this is doom”
I hurried outside to see what was going on. The wind was so strong it had an eerie whistle and one would feel that it had bad, malicious intentions. There were screams of panic and disorder. And as I tilt my head up to see the skies, there I saw waiting for me was hopelessness and despair. Approaching from afar was a mountain high tsunami. It had a sound like that of a marching army. I stood in front of it observing its mightiness. Analyzing its overwhelming strength and power. Caught up by its enchanting shiny, dark blue color. Anticipating the pain of its unwavering crash. While all this was happening, my unimaginable fear throbbing and bursting my heart, I miserably thought “how can I beat this”
But even before I could make my move, the great tsunami made its presence known and deluged the land. Yet I was alive. The flood was a hundred feet high. There was no way to survive this catastrophe. Yet quickly I thought, that this ordinary day was made phenomenal by this all-powerful tsunami, so why cant I make something extraordinary too?
I swam inside the house to save everyone from our household, not minding the risk of dying in the process. Besides theres no point in living without your loved ones anyway. So I mustered all my strength, and bravely took each one of them and brought them to the water surface. When I was done doing so, we floated in the currents of the tsunami and all we can see was serene waters. There were few of us survivors and I was lucky that I eluded a cruel death. Moreover, I have beaten my own fear.
It felt a little bit relieving, but I knew that this was far from over. I hurriedly thought of a plan, and I suggested that we go to the high rises of the city to take refuge. All of us swam a drudging 5 kilometer long apocalyptic waters. Fortunately, no harm caught us and we swam peacefully towards shelter.
We climbed a few feet in order to reach the rooftop of a 20 storey tower building. It didnt looked like much of a tower, now that the flood made it look like a 10 feet structure.
Others made it to the roof top too. Faces were in shock. Everyone was soaking wet. No one has an idea what just happened. Whats going to happen from now on? It’s like the world has been reset. But apart from all of these questions, I was relieved that I did something out of the ordinary. Something heroic. Now life goes on.
“Bakit pa binigay kung mawawala din lang” – Kitchie Nadal
Did you ever have something you loved so much but lost it along the way? Then you wonder why it causes so much pain after it has been gone. Soon after, regret creeps in thinking, If only I knew, I wouldn’t want to have it. Why did this had to happen? It is even more hurtful when this thing that you lost is love. This is the central plot of the song Darkness Fell which is on the soundtrack of the recent film by Viva entitled Sid and Aya – a romantic movie, nothing unusual, nothing special but it was worth watching. The song had a tragic ending; the film had an open ended ending but both had characters wanting something but it kept eluding them.
The film had nice cinematography, good narration and commendable acting. In my opinion, Viva produces more quality films than Star Cinema. They veer away from the formulaic look and themes making it a little bit different from the rest.
This is the only time that I’ve seen a tagalog movie in a theatre after a very long time. Most Filipino movies are a give away once you’ve seen the trailer; you can predict the ending, you know what’s going to happen, there’s no surprise ending, but I must say, Sid and Aya is worth knowing HOW the story goes.
This movie made me an Anne Curtis fan. She was so beautiful that you would want to have an Anne Curtis in your life. Kudos to the well acted scenes, the simple story of Sid and Aya was made memorable.
The scene that struck me the most during the course of the film is when Sid and Aya sits inside the car and listens to Wolfgang’s “Darkness Fell”. The scene was reminiscent of Before Sunrise, where Jesse and Celine stopped by a record store and listened to some rhythm and blues. These scenes are best examples of how music can amplify the mood of the whole film. In Sid and Aya, Sid played Darkness Fell in his car while he drives Aya home; it was so simple but it rocked. The Juans rendition was mellow and it fitted perfectly to the sequence since the lyrics were somehow mirroring what was taking place between Sid and Aya.
Darkness Fell is a lyrical genius. It tells a story of a King who saw the girl of her dreams in a very melodic and bewitching scenario.Notice how the enchanting lyrics of Darkness Fell reflected the characters of Sid and Aya:
And so she woke up from a dream That was beautiful and starry and oh so wild It was all still clear in her eyes And though her mind was foggy and blank she wondered why her life couldn’t be as lovely it was time…
Aya had dream of someday lifting her parents to a better life situation. She was incessantly working day and night for her living to be able to have enough money and go to Japan to be able to support her mother. She is so fixed on reaching her goal that having a relationship was probably the last thing on her mind. She was playful and happy go lucky during the first parts of the film but it was later revealed that she was set to be with her mom in Japan all along.
There was this king he had no castle or throne, oh no But his horse was great and white He rode alone and liked it that way But when he met her, he swore He would never leave her side…
Sid on the other hand was king nothing. He was a hot shot but he was empty inside. He is on the brink of discovering that material things could not satisfy a man’s life. The only thing that he had was riding on his bloated ego. Meeting Aya however, softened him and she was the only reason for his smile. Indeed, who wouldn’t be under the spell of a cigar smoking Anne Curtis. Sid’s life was shaken. He had thoughts of feeding his infatuation of being with this woman. And he did. In fact he even paid Aya so that she would accompany him while his girlfriend is away.
They rode across the land Two lovers hand in hand And no danger could come near And when something made her cry She’d look at him teary eyed And he would make her feel better Oh so much better So much better than before
Both of them overstayed their welcome and decided to continue meeting each other. Though Aya seemed to be accompanying Sid only because he was giving her money for giving him attention, it was later revealed that Aya already has the money to go to Japan and thus implying that she was developing feelings for Sid. They were enjoying each others company and made a world of their own. They were out of reality and it was satisfying. Sid even got to the point where he sees Aya crying in the café she is working because of her family problems, and he came to her rescue by inviting her over for some smoke. A good cigar session is probably what a lot of people need for comfort.
And now this forest was their home It was a night time and the right time for love in the dark She placed her hand upon his chest And then all the rest just flowed Makin’ love down under an ancient far away night
When Aya was invited over Sid’s condo here’s when things get a little naughty. They’re alone, they’re vulnerable, they’re drinking and they made this place their home. It was definitely the right time to explore each other intimately. All the repressed libido flowed like opening a dam filled with water. The morning after was even sweeter as Aya whispered “I love you” at the sleeping Sid beside her.
Oh tell me a story of magic And spiralling ships and stars in the night Just whisper in my ears Make it soft but make it clear I want to hear every breath you’d say
Sid and Aya loved to hear each other’s stories. That’s probably what made them feel something for each other – their conversations. Sid even shared a story about this black swan. That in life, sometimes all you can think about are white swans and then you see a black swan and your perspective changes. And little did Sid knew that all it took was a Black Swan in the form of Aya to make him see things.
It was so grand Just holdin’ someone’s hand And now safety came naturally, oh yeah It was so clear that she would never ever have to fear
Nevertheless, Sid was insensitive enough to be break Aya’s heart. He intended to propose to his then girlfriend who’s now back in Manila. Sid and Aya had their chance of being with each other while his beau was away. At the evening of their love making, Aya decided to leave for Japan with Sid’s ring that is intended to be given to his fiancé. But Sid’s fate was meant to be with Aya when he had a business trip in Japan and accidentally they bumped into each other. Now you see a more mature Aya who’s now supporting her mother and still working relentlessly. More over, it seemed that they have rekindled their fire and now that they’ve grown, it was clearer that Sid would want to have a life with Aya beside him. It was assuring that Sid and Aya had finally made up their minds, or so they thought they did.
But she woke up from the land Tears falling in her hands As she looked up asking why She laid back in her bed Thoughts raising in her head “Why can’t my life be beautiful?”, she said As she closed her eyes again Just prayin’ he’d return But only darkness fell upon her
In contrast, the song ends in tragedy as the King never returned from a possible lethal encounter, but the film end on a lighter note which is more realistic. It was the best possible outcome for Sid and Aya. They simply let destiny takes its course. They didn’t force the issue, and let the quote “kung kayo, kayo talaga” happen. They needed to grow more and focus on the things at hand which would eventually lead to their self improvement. Darkness Fell had regrets on losing their love but Sid and Aya lost theirs but are hopeful for the future. The film had different takes on how we can control the course of our lives. It’s either we sulk in regret or simply just go with the flow like what Sid and Aya did. Sabi nga sa kasabihan “kung may gusto kung isang bagay huwag mong hawakan ng mahigpit para di ka mapagod”.
Girls, if given the chance to be in a relationship, which would you prefer, to be with the bad guy or the good guy? Ironically, most women find the darker personality as an attractive one. They can’t help it! It stirs them! They find it appealing no matter how hard they try not to. Though this ain’t the case most of the time, the University of Durham found out that women are drawn to the bad boys because of their stubbornness, confidence, and their impulsiveness. Or maybe, in my opinion, they feel that they’d be the one who’d be able to change that person for the better, who knows?
Just recently, British radio station BBC Radio 1 uploaded on their YouTube channel a rendition of 50 Cent’s classic sappy love song 21 Questions. It was sung by English rapper J Hus and at first it was more of a J who to me? I had no idea who this rapper was, but I was curious on his interpretation of this bouncy rap song. It was performed live and at the first sound of the guitar, in my head it was, “ooooohhhh boy this is gonna be good!” Up ‘til the last note I was bobbing my head and feeling the groove all alone in my room. I became an instant J Hus fan. He had this deep sounding Jamaican patois in his voice and it made the song up to par with the original. It had its own flavor, a more distinct sound, and a badder more playboy version. J Hus’ version was more of taking his girl for granted and being playful rather than being faithful, unlike its predecessor. The lyrics is a stand out being for being mischievous, naughty, and outright shocking. Melodically its eargasmic, but personally, the lyrics is cool but it’s a damn turn off.
50 cent released the track 21 questions with Dr. Dre as producer. Apparently, Dre didn’t want to include this track on the album since it wasn’t “gangsta” enough. To which 50 Cent replied quote: “I’m two people. I’ve always had to be two people since I was a kid, to get by. To me that’s not diversity, it’s necessity.” The original was soft and sentimental, compared to the latest cover version, but I’d agree with 50 cent – it’s necessary to keep a heart even if you’re being hard. So if there’s a toss up between the two, 50 gets my vote.
It’s actually alarming how people glamorize womanizing. In music, media, games, it’s everywhere. Both sexes are affected by this. The women, would say, “its alright. That’s how it is. Boys let them be boys”. Then the boys would say “she’ll take me no matter what.” It’s an “everybody else is doing it, so why cant we” kind of scenario. Its gonna be fun for awhile but things simply don’t last forever. It will spell trouble! More trouble than you’d ever imagine. Its not prestigious, its ridiculous! There are numerous scandals of cheating, from Hollywood to Pilipinas-wood (You know what I mean, let’s not go there) All because of the fact that it is socially accepted for men to be a player. I can’t speak on behalf of those who has done this act, of course they have their reasons but my take – the media has a big responsibility as to why this is going rampant. I believe this has been the scenario since the ancient times, but what the hell, can’t we evolve? Infidelity has been putting the wooden stake at the heart of many for ages and thus causing severe emotional depression. Not only for woman but also in men.
It’s nice that Filipinos have their ways of coping up with heartache with their smart hugot lines. One of my favourite goes: Bakit pa binigay kung babawiin lang din –Kitchie Nadal. Its hard to lose someone especially if its because of cheating, but at least there’s some way of dealing with it in humor.
To each his own. We can’t simply approach someone and tell them “hey break up with your ladies man”. All we can do is asses ourselves and our relationship if we are burning the right energy or losing it. Is the fight even worth it? At the end of the day, remember that suffering is a choice and that no matter what’s going on, there is a way out. But if staying with your smooth operator gives you satisfaction, then so be it. For the men, please don’t push being too much of a bad boy. A little mischief will do and don’t push your girl too much. Know the limitations. No one is perfect but at least aspire to do things differently and rightfully. For the media stop, playing with our minds, and put out something useful out there.
Lastly, just a thought to ponder, have you asked your self the intention as to why you are in you current relationship now? Love is not a game but a serious, one highest forms of human expression, how do we use it in its full capacity?